I hate these iLearn forum updates in my email - they actually make me afraid, and so I don't log on knowing all the work I've mixed. I'm truly fucked up this semester. Lots of drama at home, I'm afraid. Not drama started by us - but certainly drama continued by my brother because of someone else.

Sitting at one of my closest friends' houses last night, peeling over child custody documents, photographing, discussing.... all kinds of yawn just to inform my brother of what he will expect, how he should go about getting more custody, etc., from a woman who has been through it twice - but not because she's wanted it that way. All she wanted was for the fathers to have what they needed - but they twisted things and made her go to court. On the other hand, my brother wants only for things to go easily and with respect of one another - alas, the woman has become more of a mental case, with support of her mother and a free lawyer, and they're all fighting to keep him from seeing his daughter at all for no reason but the control. Then there are the arguments because he can't handle all of this, and has had to move home. He won't listen to a word and screams abuse at my parents about how they don't listen, how we don't support him, how we won't help. All we do is help. I tried calming things last night, as I'm afraid for dad's heart. His eyes swelled red from his blood pressure mounting. Brother did not cease.

I made dad come for a walk with me. I fight so hard to protect those I love, and yet those on the outside who loved us at one point seek only to destroy, which creates an implosion within the family circle. If my father has a heart attack because of this, I will make it my life's work to make that person miserable. Nothing illegal. But all the misery I've been given over my full life and people have gotten away with - that stuff, I will do, which will make her regret being such a monumental cunt.

Life is fun. That isn't even the only drama I'm experiencing.

Thank the gods my ex is the best person in the world I've yet met.

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posted by Da at 10:52:00 AM