Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my injured life.

Today, I went through the traumatising process of getting a 30 day script for the weight loss drug Duromine. It was a trial. If it was bad enough getting Xanax for my condition, I can tell you Duromine wasn't fun. Actually, figuratively, this would have been more fun.



It's bad enough getting the Morning After Pill when you realise you forgot to take the pill last night, and had some riske intercourse. You're just being cautious, yet you get questioned by the pharmacist like you're an idiotic criminal. I got told by a nurse at my chosen GP office once that I should pay more attention and take my tablet when I should. Very rich, considering I was 24, told her I had been on the pill since I was 17, and took the tablet at the same time daily for all those years EXCEPT this one night where I had gotten confused by the new compact-layout of the blister pack. Seriously, the thing went from 15cm long with the pills around the edges, to snaking around the pack at around the 8cm mark. I am allowed to get confused. I'm allowed to slip up once in 6 years.


Anyway, back on track. After 40 mins with a doctor, a doctor consult with that doctor, a questioning pharmacist, and $100 later, I have a 30 day supply of the 15mg tabs, Duromine. Why am I going to be on this drug, you might ask? The shortest story is: Before 2007: martial artist, training to be a PT, fit, strong, 58kg, lots of muscle, feeling greattttttt. After 2007: motorcycle accident, shattered shoulder requiring two 6 hour long ops, three torn lower back discs, screwed up knees, depression, anxiety, lose job due to injuries, and lack of mobility, an SSRI, an SNRI and the pill = Ashe put on 30kg. BUT, I only put that weight on in the last year and a half, when I started on the SSRI/SNRI. I barely even eat. And before you get judgmental: you have no idea what pain I am in day in, day out.
I moved back from Syd to my Hrm Lhaaaand in Jan due to "awh ma gawd, zey tuk ma jerrrrrrb" (nah, I'm a poor student in my fourth year), and managed to lose 7kg, taking me to 82kg. But, I'm stagnant at 82kg now. I walk as much as I can in a day, totalling 40 mins and eat a lot better back home. Alas, increased pain levels and difficulties keeping up payment of my double dose of SNRI means I'm on a lower dose and in pain a hell of a lot more than I was. And barely coping with anxiety. Did I mention I also have really bad OCD and daily migraine headaches, not to mention severe eczema?

YEAHHHHHHH I'm a keeper.

Anyway, I've got my OptiSlim replacement shakes, Super Slim and Quick Slim diet additives at the ready, with ingredients for soup for dindins for the next while. Come follow me from tomorrow for updates on how I'm doing, exercise and diet wise.

I plan to fit into my old awesome clothes by the close of the year. Yep.

FOR THE CORSETS!

(And many corsets there are.)

Me in 2007 /before/ my accident:

Me in 2011 a year after starting Lexapro. Trust me, I'm chubby as hell. But it got worse:

Me on my nieces bday in 2013:

Me in 2014 years after stopping Duromine:

Anyway, please join me on my journey to help encourage me on my way back to /as hot as I can ever get/. ;-)






-Ashe.

Labels: bitchy nurse, corset, diet, diet pill, disability, duromine, exercise, fat, fat loss, fit, injury, morning after pill, muscles, ocd, photos of me, struggle, weight loss, well-being

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posted by Da at 11:41:00 PM